Can you die of a broken heart?
However I didn’t because here I am.
Broken heart syndrome is commonly described as a physical pain in the heart or chest area, which is due to the emotional stress caused by a traumatic breakup or the death of a loved one. Hmmmm death almost seems like the favorable option here – not mine. His! (Yes, I am a bitch even when I am sad).
Why? What happened? You may ask. Well, this is where you may hate me – I am not ready to write about what happened. I can say this much though that it has been a year since the heart break happened and I am better. A lot better. So much better in fact, that I have a lot less pain in my heart. There are days when there is absolutely no pain. I think of him less and less. I can’t say yet that days go by where I don’t think of him but I am hopeful.
I have been blessed with the ‘moving on’ gene. I thank the imaginary Gods every day for this. It’s not from a lack of feeling on my part (Trust me, I feel wholeheartedly) – it’s just that I am an optimist and believe that good things will happen to me even when shitty things happen.
So why even bother writing this post at the risk of angering or irritating my readers?
What can I say … along with the ‘moving on’ gene – I also have the ‘testing my limits gene.’
But in all seriousness, I am writing the story that I speak of with good old fashioned pen and paper. I have to do it in very small increments since I don’t want to get sucked into the sadness. I have successfully graduated from the crying, pining, teary stage where I would deliberately listen to sad songs to make me cry in an attempt to let it all out.
I am also looking for the silver lining that every story or event in your life is supposed to have. Thus far I am the only silver and fuck, the golden lining in HIS life. I haven’t been able to come up with ONE good reason why this man came into my life.
As soon as I have some answers, my dear readers, you will be the first to know.
I leave you with this…
This is encouraging:
Stick with me please.
Until I date again!